But today I don't feel like it. Today I am so angry I could spit. So angry that my goals of creating my own happiness and not letting things outside of my control, control me are derailed. I want to kick and punch and scream. Mostly scream. Scream so loudly that I pierce eardrums and thereby inflict harm without raising a fist.
I'm not evolved. I'm angry.
Now, I may not feel this way tomorrow. I may not feel this way later tonight. But the way I feel right now impedes my ability to be grateful for anything or to feel anything other than anger at this moment. It is what it is.
I don't have the ability to lash out, of course. That's a luxury I can't afford, because I know it would be a mistake. But until it subsides on its own, I'm going to need my space.
Someone tell me: what do you do when someone is grieving and hurting more than they ever have but do things to hurt you so that they are in a position to inflict hurt rather than feel? What do you do? How do you not take it personally?
That isn't theoretical. I'm really asking.